testing! hahaha... my buddy and me =x lol 

izzit truth tat woman are different from man? wat i mean is... how we look at things... yup... and attitude towards matters.... i dunno... dun wanna give any comments abt this... haha... so is like... maybe things will change as times pass by....haha... actually ar.... i think either man or woman... we are de same....all of us got different personality...so is like... nothing to compare abt... LOL~! lame huh.... its 9.46 lo...my lesson start at 10.30am... lolllllll... damn jialat...going to bath soon... yup... wanna go sch loooooooooooooo... "don't get sad for wat trouble u today... do not think abt wat mess up yor mood yesterday.... as today is a brand newday...." GD HUH?! i din copy it...! lolllllll.... this is wat i realli thought of...i juz wanna tell her this... yup yup... becoz she seems to be like...will get districted by wat happen to her frenZz... she will like tend to be... be in their shoes lo.... u know wat i mean? haha...k le la...i go bath lo... got time den come in and blog again! haha... =D

i find tat....without her... i will be like....dunno dunno....i can still carry on wif my life...but... i juz felt different when we are back to fren status...haiz....so f man... wif all de do and duns in my mind...wat for...haha....stupid sia.... i dun realli like to go clubbing....or wat...but...is there so fun? y she wanna go? haha....damn....she is onli a fren of mine...like zh and fm...i dun care like wat thery are doing ma...so y muz i care so much for wat she is doing...rite? juz hope tat she know wat is gd for her lo...yup... not tat i dun care for my fren...wat i mean is....de care for ruwen is like... i treat it like...she was my gf.... -_- diao rite? y i still like her man...y? y i still got de feelings for her?i thik tat i shouldn't bother tat much... tml got test..today suppose to study... but in de end...go out...to hav a dinner wif her...and out frenzz... WAT AM I DOING?!!!! WAT AM I DOING?!!! so f up man...maybe i should rest early tonite...tml things will turn out clearer and better....haiz....gdniteZz guysS...broSsss....Sis...Dude....evey one....world peace... vVv

i Was veri happi this morning when i receive her msg saying...she will be back to sg at niteZZ... den i quickly call her to confrim it....haha....although i knew it tat....it was true... i was realli looking forward to see her de whole morning and afternoon and at niteZz...den finally...i saw her le...she grow abit fatter le....but nvm...still look as cheerful as before...haha.... i hate it when i was doing those stupid act infront of her....acting as if i am still childish....dunno y i juz felt uneasy when i saw her.... juz had to smile and being lame.... to hide de feeling.... we bought dinner to her house to eat...den...i sat beside her...i felt happi abt it.... u might think tat i am lame but... this is how i realli felt...at nite juz now when i am online...juz got back home from her house... she told me tat she is sad abt not feelin de bond she had last time wif her frenZz....and she wanna go back to NZ.... i dun like it when she was telling me this.... maybe she is juz not getting use to it where by alot of things had change.... i know tat she treasure de frenship between her closest freZz... and too....they also treasure it...i am sure of tat... to u...i am forever making u feeling like this >>> -_-''' nvm la....at least we are still fren....dunno.... but no matter wat...enjoy yor stay in Sg...den den....flash away de thought of going NZ now...k? hope so....k la.... i going to rest liao... niteZz guysS... world peace...Hope everyone will hav their dream come true...

its 2005 le....a new yr....1.28am now... haha.... is nite meant to be sad or happi? haha...if ppl ask me...i will say " depends...becoz...happi or sad...u will decide on yor own...its yor life...haha" but....for me....my feelings had choosen sad....in de sence like....moody.... hmmmmmmmm... haiz.... wat is love? haha....eveytime i will find ppl veri stupid....y? becoz they are trap in de "web" of love...but....now i am....dunno wat am i toking abt....is like....okie.... i get used to it...where by i can chat wif ruwen....msg her everyday during de holidays... it had been 2weeks since de last time i msg ruwen.... i wanna msg her everyday.... wanna konw how is she? i juz wanna know everything of her....juz wan to know tat....she is fine everyday...over there.... izzit wrong? can someone tell me....how can i forget her... break up wif zhi jia got 2mths or 3 lo....is like....maybe...ya...both of us...is juz a crush onli baHh.... but truth enoungh....i realli treasure her when we are together....maybe we are juz....not meant to be together....althought we are sad on de day we break...but....now....we are gd frenZz....yup.... veri confuse now.... i konw tat...wat expect from ruwen is....she juz wanna pure frenship wif me.... last mth...she dhout tat...i still like her....so is like....we got problems flying in de air....but....i reply her email...saying.... "i juz wanna prue frenship....trust me k?" this is wat i reply to her....and she is alrite after tat....becoz.... she gave a try to trust me....no matter wat....i juz wan her to feel happi.... even is to hide up my feeling....i will too.... sometimes....she will like....find "trouble" wif me... lol... maybe this is she bah.... most of de problems...can say all....all are not meant to be an issue to be quarrel... ya lo... its juz a misunderstanding.... yup.... like....eg; i jk around like....keep haha....of wat ever la.... she juz dun like it....den...slowly...she vend anger on me...haha....i stund at first....becoz i dunno wat happen....but but...in de end....everything are settled... hmmmmmm....haiz....going to rest now lo.....if not tml surely can't wake up...haha....eheheh...i mean later....becoz its 1am++ lo.... gonana wake up at 6am tml....diaooooooooooooooooooooooooooz...haha.... gd nite frenZz! hope everyone will be fine....free from problemsSs.... and....happi always....same goes to u...k? moron...? haha... msg her tml! wahahaha....steady....

maybe life is juz like tat....it should be like tat... sianz... feeling so sad...and moody... i juz broke up wif my gf yesterday....we cried man....we actually cried...haiz...i realli put her inside my heart... and love...but....haiz...we juz dun hav time...this is de problem... de other one is... she doesn't realli love me....she din love me in her heart.... i find it...abit selfish of her...becoz of her ex... she can't accept me...haiz.... maybe time will heal everything.... patch? maybe after a few mths den see how...ya loH....wait till we realli got time le...den say.... now...i will juz treate this period of time as we need time for ouself to do wat we should do now....no matter is study or CCA...i will wait...ya loH.... maybe i will ask her back...after de exam...yup... now study study!!!

waaaaa....long long time never write loH...haha... hmmmmm... i got myself a great gf... we are together for 1mth++ le... hee...love her alot...hope she will too... ya... hee...*she juz msg me...* hee...we are going out for a movie today...we had not been hanging out together although we are together... but we are still gdgd... haha... this few days i hav been plying pokemon... =P haha... lame rite? or can say childish...lolllllllllllll.... but its juz for fun laH...haha...going out to meet dEaR DeaR loh....bye guys....